Just becuase I want to Rant

I really don't have anything to report. So I am just going to write to your comments and hope that somehow I get inspired along the way. So Chu, its depressing that all I have to look forward to is a slightly more mature version of junior high. With cosmopolitans and mojitos. Whoo-pee. Why can't there just be mutual feelings? Yes, yes I know of course there are mutual feelings and YAY! they hook up. But what about that poor girl on the side? It must be painful sitting on the sidelines watching some guy you like on the rollercoaster of love. I KNOW it is painful. I mean sometimes your not even aloud to go on the teacups of love. You cant happily enter the amusement park of love without having the nagging feeling that the person you came looking for is having a hell of a lot better time than you with someone else. Because when you are buying an overpriced meal of heartbroken milkshake fries, you are bound to see HIM and HER sharing a jumbo Rasberry Loveonade 50% off. We can just hope that someone else was stupid enough to buy a ticket when single and they are VERY VERY hot.











~Spaz~

NO I DONT KNOW WHY I USED AN AMUSEMENT PARK METAPHOR. But thanks for tolerating it.

P.S tomorow I am leaving to go to Lake Tahoe. Whoo hoo. But I cant write meanwhile. I won't get back till June 10. I might write about if i feel like it. Which I probably wont.

Eh. heh. heh. hem.

Well to tell you the truth, I don't want to write about the east coast trip. In fact I despise these overly long messages. Really. Which is why I put off writing for 2 months. and so to avoid my discomfort i will sum up my trip in a very short way.

The most fun was New York. Highlights: Fed and held squirrel. Saw Grease (Your the one that I want, ooh ooh ooh, honey!) on Broadway! and a wax museum that my friend and i got kicked out of for breaking Elvis, and I stayed underwater for 7 minutes. mmm so proud of myself. Low- VERY CRUMMY HOTEL!!!!

Philadelphia - By far the most beautiful. Highlights- a really funny comedy show, and the ghost tour. Low - Hotel was nicer but located in a graveyard. Which I had the blessing to have a full blown window view of. Which we later learned was haunted. Not to mention a week later I was watching A Haunting and it was about that graveyard.

D.C - Boring. Highlights - Hotel, bus (I know.) Lows - got chased down by security guards for tripping and pushing over an exhibit. Lovely

Well there you go. Now on to my love life. Things with Anthony and me have began to clear up. I no longer have strong feelings for him anymore, it seems to have faded down to a gentle thud. But then there is Matt Dove. Although he is a bit on the short side for me (im 5'8) he is everything a girl could would want in a guy. Except for being blonde (not crazy about that personally), his hair is on the longish side and he has brilliant blue/green eyes. He is athletic and funny and popular (not to keen on that either) and blah blah blah. Well he told me he likes me and I have the most beautiful eyes he has ever seen (WOW.) But I didn't like him. and guess what? NOW I DO! Now that he is over me, of course I like him. I discovered this about a week ago, before school ended. I was determined to tell him. But he was never alone. Because, as I said, he is popular. Bleh. and for graduation I sit behind him. but people are all around so I cant tell him nothing. And so I left junior high behind forever yesterday, and I can't help but think 'Well, I missed my chance.'

Well thats it for now folks. Im so sorry this took so long and yes, I know I have no right to show my face around here. WELL TO BAD! I ain't going anywhere.

~Spaz~

P.S I SAW A CHORUS LINE! Let me just say. Oh. My. God. It was fantastic. I went opening weekend. Although I have to say I was disappointed with the number Nothing, Natalie Hall (playing Val) did an absolutely fantastic job on Dance: Ten, Looks: Three. Her performance was down right hilarious and somehow made her number one of my favorites. Also I have to say What I Did for Love was stunning and everyone was completely spellbound, and I noticed everyone was leaning forward (I even caught myself doing it time and again.) So 12 thumbs up! I recommend seeing it! But after it leaves L.A it is going to Japan then U.K. So it isn't coming back to America. Enjoy it while you can.

Guess who's back???

I'm back from D.C! Before I tell you about fantastically fun trip (with ALL the details whether you want it or not) first I have to thank YOU Supreme. Out of all 4 1/2 viewers, you were in the only one who had the guts to do the 3 animals thing! BRAVO! Also, Dory is a blue tang. I know this because I own a blue tang. As for the clothing part... Well Nuisance did it! And how could it be a nuisance of a begining without doing what Niki did? So there you go. But now back to the animal thing... Eh-hem. My three animals and why:

1) Wolf - They are intellegent, friendly, social, misunderstood, and seem to have a zest for life (why else would they fight so hard to keep surviving?)

2) Sloth - They take life slowly, and when you look into their eyes they are really wise looking and seem like old souls.

3) Orchid - mostly because this is NOT the expected answer, and I love doing the unexpected. Plus they are GORGEOUS!!! And yes, orchids are a type of flower. Here is a picture:

So now is time to take a little time to look through a wondow of my life and getting to know me better through the above test.

Animal #1: How you see youself.

Animal #2: How others see you.

Animal #3: How you want to be.

This test is usually scarely acurate. Lalalalala. Well now I am very tired of typing so maybe I will come back later to tell you about D.C.

~Spaz~

P.S Its okay supreme. I'm a drama dork too. But you will have to find out what I saw on broadway next time. But to alleviate you stress, if not for a little bit, I will tell you I am seeing A Chorus Line and Wicked soon! Chorus Line sounds cool but I am ssoooooooo excited for Wicked! I already know all the songs by heart!

A Nuisance of a Beginning (as Stolen from Niki Nuisance)

Wearing: Boondox Saints T-Shirt (amazing movie for all who don't mind gore), skinny jeans, and my deariest guy-friend Troy's jacket.

Hearing: The trees rustling outside my wind and the low howl of the wind. (By the way, I wonder what the wind is howling about. Perhaps it has seen or heard to much in this world and needs to find a way to chill. Haha. Geddit? Chill. Wind. HAHAHAHA. I crack myself up.)

Mood: Zen

o___o_______________________o__o

My friends, as I have nothing else to report, I am now replying to your loving comments. Well first things first. I may have found my Huebert!!! Yay! Snaps for Huebert! Anyway, I am staying friends with Anthony. I enjoy his company and I dunno, liking him gives me a sorta peace (Or ZEN as I like to say). He's fun to hang out with; he knows I like him; I can be myself around him. It all just kinda works out. Although, I think that perhaps he still needs to get used to my... spazziness.

~ALSO~

On behalf of our newest member of this Spaz Clan, I present to you MG! And in celbatoryness, here is her veg recipe:

Chickpea, butternut and tomato tagine

1. Chop and fry a medium onion in olive oil.

2. A half a large butternut squash, diced. Fry lightly.

3. Add a tin of chopped tomatoes, 200 ml water, a tin of chickpeas

4. Add 1/2 teapsoon cumin powder

5. Add 10-20 fine slices of fresh ginger root

6. Stir, cover with lid and cook for around 15 mins.

7. Add 12 springs of fresh coriander, chopped. Add fresh ground black pepper to taste.

8. Serve with couscous, quinoa or rice

Sadly however, I am on probation from microwave & stove. I decided I would do a mythbusters, and I put wrinkled up tin foil in a microwave. It was such a beautiful display of lights (no, sorry folks no explosion) that I had to keep repeating. Then my parents came and caught me. Sigh.

And I must agree with ALL of you. Guys do make the best of friends. Although, I have my doubts about Austin (Nuisance's Friend). Don't get me wrong, he is funny, and yet to hit puberty, but he seems judgemental. No no, if I need to cry to some guy, it would to my friend Richard (honestly he is the only guy who can keep his mouth shut during time of crisis at my school.) Lalala, I love California during spring. It's my favorite season. It's so beautiful, all the flowers in bloom, it's warm enough to swim, the sky is at its bluest at this time of year, all the baby animals. The very air is new. Its so rejuvinating. You know what this calls for a new haircut!

Okay people in other news, I am starting another story! I began one before and worked on it for a year, then my brother deleted it off my computer and I didn't have another copy. It made me so sad because I never stayed on one story for that long. But now I was Inspired!!! I am starting a new story. It's a girl of late 1700's - early 1800's England, who's name is Angelina Valentine. Her father is a rich-type person, and everyone knows there was a lot of deciet going on back then right? Well because of one deciet (not sure which) Angelina is forced to flee her home under cover of night. Penniless, she pretends to be a boy, and gets recruited to be a cabinboy on a ship that is supposed to be headed to America, where she figures she will be able to escape. And keep in mind she has never worked a dayin her life. Thats all I got for now...

And my dear friends, this is the last thing. I ask you to please, please participate in this. Tell me your 3 favorite animals (in order) and then tell why you like them. I'll explain in the next post why and what this means. I'll post mine in the next one too.

~Spaz~

P.S What happened to Moanie, MG? I miss her! WAIT! Please tell me you didn't ground her! She is a good person!!!

P.S.S Supreme Ruler, here is my reply for your comment to my list of supplies:

BWahaha. i know you are. I also need to add a dress for the broadway show. And get this: We are going to applebees after! Haha!!! Im dressin fancy to go to Applebees. However it is more fun to go to In'n'Out in ur Pj's, or dressed as mutant teenage ninja turtles. or go to mc donalds, set out a table cloth and a rose (candles arent aloud) and dress like your going to prom.

Maybe He just isn't all that into me...

So I've been thinking. Yah, shocker I know. I don't think Anthony is just all that into me. I mean, if he was wouldn't he have asked me out by now? I like to believe so. And besides rumor has it, he is asking out Katie Golden. And by rumor I mean I heard him say it. Well they could easily be a couple, but I know who would wear the pants in that relationship (Katie). Besides, I've done all I could. I made it known that I liked him, and he decided not to take the bait. So there is nothing I can do, can I? Ah well. That is my life. I am fine with being friends with him - he is a lot of fun and easy to talk to. By the way, my long post is done but on a different computer. So sorry.



-Also-



Of late I have been feeling guilty about eating meat. I mean how can I eat something that was once living?

I find it to be cruel. So, perhaps I will be veg. but I can't let my parents know. They don't approve of me being veg. and rub meat in my face. So farewell orange chicken, potatoe balls, and beef and tomato. I will miss you! And remember:
& GO VEG!

~Sami~ xoxo

P.S I have decided each post will include a vegetarian picture to inspire me to keep going. And the occasional recipe (all vegetarian!) Thanks for your support! :)

EEKERs!

I know I just posted like an hour ago but real quick. Only like 9 days till I go to D.C and New York and stuff! I need to buy stuff! I need... to make a list. Just so I don't get TO confused (it happens fairly easy.) Eh-he-hem:

~List of Things to Buy~

1) New Shoes (my shoes have got holes in them because since I am humanitarian, I walk to school for the ozone.)
2) Shirts
3) Feather Boa (too long a story!)
4) Pop Rocks (Also long story)
5) Hairbrush (mine exploded)
6) Beach Shorts or Capris (I dont like bermuda's and all I have are skinny and flair jeans)
7) A Bathing Suit (my dog,Taz ate mine)
8) Klauta Ring (for my own entertainment)
9) Top Hat (Well... Its me. Must I say more?)

~Spaz~

P.S If I miss anything feel free to tell me. Or if you want to suggest anything. Unless they are strawberry flavored condoms (yes there is such a thing). Then please, please keep it to yourself. buh bi!

The 80's threw up on me!

I got the most AMAZING sunglassess EVER! They have clear frames and purple lenses and everyone is obssessed with them and vair vair spazzy, but they appear to make it seem like the 80's threw up on me. Ah well. What I would do for an amazing sunglassess...

In other news, I CAN'T HOLD IT IN ANY LONGER! So Huebert, Chu, Nuisance, and Supreme, I shall give you a little tease for the super long post. I talked to Anthony. Yippee!!! He is really easy to talk to and is fun to be around which is a plus. Sadly our conversation ended up with me telling him about the time I caught my pants on fire... Again, as I've said a million times before, there has GOT to be something wrong with me.

Ladedadedoo,
Buh bi my fans!!!

~Spaz~ xoxo

P.S How is Liana Sterling for a alter ego on the east coast?? She can be my calm, study-like, smart, alter ego of me!!! I can even buy fake sunglassess!

P.S.S I got a 94% on my History benchmark!!! (the benchmark is a very very serious test, worth BIG grade) Thank you Liana!!!

Getting Back to My Inner Me

So it happened. We all knew it was. Because suddenly without sign... I CRACKED! Yes, Huebert and Nuiscance. I ate meat. (Sorry Nuisance)It is incredibly hard for me not to. I love to eat meat and I love to cook. And I just don't think its right that I can cook an animal, but refuse to eat it. So I have decided I will eat meat and, just like Indians, pray for the animals forgiveness and give my thanks. And to add to this I am becoming much more spiritual. To many people have become veg. I have this thing about being different. So I will be all spiritual and stuff. Don't get me wrong. I am still on a quest to make myself a better person. Just... now it's to find out more about those around me. People always tell me I am an old soul. Now to find out about my past lives...

East Coast Trip is coming up. Thats where I go with my school to travel to New York (yay!), Washington D.C, and other less famous places. And guess what? We get to fly there. Yay. Not. I hate flying. But I want to see more of the world, and I can suck it up. It'll all be worth it. Unless my plane crashes and I die. Gah!!! Shut up, brain, Shut up! Huebert doesn't need to worry! I'll try to sneak my labtop so I can keep writing.

Pretty soon I have to decide what classess I need to take in high school. I love to cook and would like to be a chef, which would be liberal arts.
But I also love animals and nature and might want to be a vet so maybe Bio. Maybe in college, a major in Bio, and minor in Liberal Arts. I don't know. Its so sad that a 13 year old girl is already forced to think about college. So give me your opinion. What should I do - Chef or Vet? Just from what you know about me. It really isnt fair I have to choose. As my friend Sweet (the band) would say:

"All over the land

The kids are finally startin' to get the upper hand

They're out in the streets,

they turn on the heat

And soon they could be completely in command

Imagine the sensation of teenage occupation

At thirteen they'll be learning

But at fourteen they'll be burnin'

But there's something in the air

Of which we all will be aware

But they don't care, no, no, no, no... so

Come join the revolution, get yourself a constitution

Come join the revolution now

And recognise your age it's a teenage rampage

Turn another page on the teenage rampage now

So recognise your age it's a teenage rampage

Turn another page on the teenage rampage now!

They're getting it on, ain't doing it wrong

And they're gonna do it , it won't be long

They gotta be heard, they got the word that really belongs

And now they're coming on strong

Imagine the formation of teenage legislation

At thirteen they were fooling

But at sixteen they'll be rulin'

And there's something in the airof which we all will be aware

But they don't care, no, no, no, no... so

Come join the revolution, get yourself a constitution

Come join the revolution now

And recognise your age it's a teenage rampage

Turn another page on the teenage rampage now

So recognise your age it's a teenage rampage

Turn another page on the teenage rampage now!

There's something in the air

Of which we all will be aware, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah... so

Come join the revolution, get yourself a constitution

Come join the revolution now

And recognise your age it's a teenage rampage

Turn another page on the teenage rampage now

So recognise your age it's a teenage rampage

Turn another page on the teenage rampage now!"

If only...


Lalalala,
Spaz xo

P.S still working on that super large post... Please, Huebert, LEAVE A COMMENT!

Life, Fights, and Cramped Closets

Seeing as you all abandoned me, I don't see why I keep writing in this blog. But in the hopes that somehow I still have a secret reader who refuses to send out a comment, I shall continue writing.And I wont even beg you to leave a comment. I'm generous that way.

As of right now I am curled up in my cramped closet with pillows and blankets and this cruddy old labtop. If you are wondering why I would sacrifice the ability stretch my legs out straight I will tell you why:
It is simply because I am furious at my parents.

I know, I know. You, my imaginary reader (I think I will name you Huebert) is wondering what my parents did to put me in such an uncomfortable position. Well Ill tell you Huebert!!! They called me fat!
So at first I took in stride. Said a few snide comments, etc. etc. Then I called Child Services as well. Here is the conversation:

*Ring*
*Ring*
*Click*
Hello, Child Services, Linda speaking.
Moi: Hello Linda. I have something to report.
Linda (in a serious voice): Yes? What is it?
Moi: My parents called me fat and I feel extremly insulted.
Linda: ...
Moi: Hello?
Linda: Thats not a valid reason to report somone.
Moi: What? How? Don't you know 13 is a very impressionable age? I can be scarred for life!!!
*Click*
Moi:...
Moi: Did you hang up on me?
Moi: ...
Moi: Yes? Ok. Bye.

Those are the kind of adults that are running the world right now. Will minors ever get help from the old?

~Spaz~

P.S I have an update of my life on another computer. I'll post when I get internet back on that computer.

If Im not on...

My lovely readers I am sorry to say I am grounded. I am sneaking on right now while babysitting so sshhh. If you don't hear from me for awhile don't worry.

~Spaz~ God Bless for being so patient.

Isn't it all just kind of pointless?

Well I have officially given up on Anthony. I mean I still like him but honestly what is the point? He won't ever like me so I don't see why I cant just leave it. We started talking now, too. Now I see its really hopeless. Sure we have a lot in common but thats just it. We have to much in common! He will just start looking at me as a friend... like all guys. Plus whenever I get the guts up to tell him I have to talk to him I cant do it. I fantisize about it but I just cant DO IT. And I guess it doesn't help that now that I am a humanitarian (I hope I used that correctly) I have began wearing baggy shirts. But I am also working out so when I go back to my feminist clothing I'll look fab. I hope...

In other news, the counselors have called Allysa to the office. She still hasn't confronted me but its just a matter of time. And then my friend was mad at me for something I said 2 weeks ago!!! After that I just snapped. Yep, my 1 reader out there, the waterworks turned on. It was horrid. And when everyone was being extra nice to me. There must be something wrong with me if someone being compassionate to me makes me cry.

That actually makes me think though... I guess I'm not that pretty.... But when I look in the mirror nothing seems TO wrong. My hair is kinda pretty. Dark brown with natural red highlights. Green and gold/brown eyes (hazel) that in my opinion looks like dieing avocados. Freckles (ugh) but tannish skin. To long legs. To tall. What my friends call 'curvy' but we all know is just a polite way to say fat. Blah Blah Blah. Ugly Ugly Ugly. Im hurting my eyes by looking at myself. Eekers. Buh Bi.
~Sami~ xoxo

When???

I found my first day as a vegetarian with a hugo problemo. My dad to make barbecue with ribs. As a huge rib lover this was a big temptation. But I resisted temptation and just ate corn, beans, and a barf burger - er - veggie burger smothered in barbecue sauce. And I didnt give in!I stayed Veg! I can actually do this!

In celebration, I made a present to myself, a orange bracelet with a knitted center thing. Orange is the color to represent animals (don't ask me how I know this; I know way to many useless facts.) so it works. As long as my bracelet stays knotted on my wrist I will be vegetarian. Yay!

"Don't you know that you are a shooting star?" sings my ipod.
"Yes, I actually do." I reply back.

I CAN DO ANYTHING!

So when do you think will be a good time to confront Anthony?

~Spaz~ <3

Salutes to you, Gordo

Gordo - R.I.P
Forever you will be Remembered

I just read the saddest thing. Gordo apperantly died in a very sad way... Here is the little paragraph from rateitall.com:

Gordo, a spider monkey, traveled to space in 1958, becoming the first monkey to do so. Gordo traveled more than 1500 miles in a rocket before splashing back down into the South Atlantic. Sadly, Gordo's parachute failed to open, and the rocket's nose cone sank, dragging Gordo to a hero's death. The Pentagon assumed responsibility for the tragedy.

Poor Gordo. We love you Gordo! It wasn't all in vain, you changed history! We hope you like your home at the big Jungle Gym in the Sky!

~Spaz~

P.S Pip Pip to Nuisance!!! She made herself a blog!!! Here is the link.

Progress Report of Goodlyness #1:

Here my progress to becoming a enlightened person:

Moonridge Animal Park: $363.50 donated by Spaz!!!!


Vegetarian Day 1: Just to inform you all I am not hard core vegan. I still eat seafood. Sorry shrimp, and fish, and all you dolphins caught in the net for cruelty of fishing...

Volenteering: If I do remember, I have to make an appointment a day before. I'll do that.

Now that I think of it, in my quest to a better person, I will become (gulp) a good student. Mostly for my parents hearts, but also because we know that smart people in the universe sometimes get to be presidents.

Good Student Day 1: Doing homework. I feel very strange inside...

In my opinion I am off to a very good start... Hope you guys support me in my do gooderness. I think I will also create a shrine to Gordo, the first monkey in space. You can see Gordo in the upper right and upper left corner. He looks so sad. Imagine being all alone in space... and on the left photo he looks so resigned to his fate...

Love,

Spaz - Thanks Gordo!!!

I've become blind...

Not in the normal sense of the word. It seems to me that I have become blind to something throughout my life has been so important to me. As a child I have always dreamed of changing the world. So I am going to start! I will raise money for Moonridge Animal Park ( a zoo who saves animals but needs money or they have to release the animals that won't be able to survive), become vegetarian, volunteer more regularly at the animal shelter, and be an incredibly generous to everyone. Who cares what Anthony thinks!!! I will be a selfless person! A life enthusiast!(but not to a creepy point) And plus this makes what I did to Allysa a good deed. Right? I will keep my progress of my extreme selflessness and generosity here on the blog. Yipee! I am going to be a good person!!!

~Spaz~

Its come back, with Avengence.

Yes, drama has come back to attack me. After 5 years of avoiding it, drama has come back with five years worth of drama all squeezed into a short week. Fun, you can say. In the land of the insane. Lets review:

~ I've become one of those horribly annoying snitchy people who tattle on their friends.

~The guy I like (Anthony) figured out, and is telling anyone who can hear.

Sure its only two things. But they are generally annoying. Let me give you details for you few viewers:

As for snitchyness, I avoid it. I try my best to stay on peoples good side, because I am goody two shoes with a butter knife edge. And so when my friend (Allysa) shows up totally baked at school I was like "Okay she is stupid." But surprisingly she wasn't caught by our apperantly ignorant teachers. So after school I confronted her about it. She says she has been smoking weed for about a year. That means she started in Grade 7. GRADE 7! To be smoking that long, she would have to be addicted. And here is my pathetic excuse for an interrogation.

Me: Are you addicted? (sneaky huh?)
Allysa: No way! I can stop whenever I want!
Me: So stop now!
Allysa: But I don't want to.
Me: Then your addicted!

I resisted the urge to shake her until her brains fell out, so I just stalked away. So, I made the desicion to tell a counselor. What kind of poor excuse for a friend am I? Somebody please tell me Im not a bad a person. No? okay.

Drama #2

So the guy I like - what did I call him - oh yes, chuck. Well, he figured I like him. Of course. They always do. thats another thing that adds to my loserness. Well he figured it out I like him (surprise surprise) and was spreading it around. Everywhere I heard "So you like Anthony?" and so I replied "How did you find out?!" and they say "Anthony told me." Mhm. Huge jerk right? Well I dont really think its so much as him being a jerk (he is really nice) but so much of being as being an egomaniac. Not to mention (you know, just to make things more complicated) that he recently broke up with his girlfriend, and Im not supposed to know, and now him and his ex are friends with benefits. Although I'm not sure he agreed to it. Last time I heard he was just thinking about it.

Normally I immediately start not-liking someone after they find out. I have a fear of commitment. But the wierd thing is I STILL LIKE HIM. Yikes, huh? And whats even worse is I cant get the guts up to confront him about it. Where has the confident Spaz I know and love go? I want her back!!!

~Spaz~ xoxo

P.S You may have noticed I changed peoples names. I am not that creative so I can't just keep on making up names... So sorry.

Why am I bothering to Write a blog?

You may be wondering why I would ever take time out of my wonderfully busy life to write a blog. Well to tell you the truth, my life is not busy. In fact it is the complete opposite of busy. It is so painfully boring I should get some award for level of boringness achieved. Plus my mom said to make a blog so I can give all my problems to complete strangers (no offense) so she didn't have to be bothered by them. Charming. Not.

And so with the encouragement of a few friends I give you this blog. Let us hope by the end of these blog entries they are still my friends. So through groundations and dillemma, love and love lost, drama and un-drama, sickness and health (no we are not getting married) I will write in this blog regularly. Probably.

~Spaz~ xoxo