Well I have officially given up on Anthony. I mean I still like him but honestly what is the point? He won't ever like me so I don't see why I cant just leave it. We started talking now, too. Now I see its really hopeless. Sure we have a lot in common but thats just it. We have to much in common! He will just start looking at me as a friend... like all guys. Plus whenever I get the guts up to tell him I have to talk to him I cant do it. I fantisize about it but I just cant DO IT. And I guess it doesn't help that now that I am a humanitarian (I hope I used that correctly) I have began wearing baggy shirts. But I am also working out so when I go back to my feminist clothing I'll look fab. I hope...
In other news, the counselors have called Allysa to the office. She still hasn't confronted me but its just a matter of time. And then my friend was mad at me for something I said 2 weeks ago!!! After that I just snapped. Yep, my 1 reader out there, the waterworks turned on. It was horrid. And when everyone was being extra nice to me. There must be something wrong with me if someone being compassionate to me makes me cry.
That actually makes me think though... I guess I'm not that pretty.... But when I look in the mirror nothing seems TO wrong. My hair is kinda pretty. Dark brown with natural red highlights. Green and gold/brown eyes (hazel) that in my opinion looks like dieing avocados. Freckles (ugh) but tannish skin. To long legs. To tall. What my friends call 'curvy' but we all know is just a polite way to say fat. Blah Blah Blah. Ugly Ugly Ugly. Im hurting my eyes by looking at myself. Eekers. Buh Bi.
~Sami~ xoxo
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It's not pointless! There's always hope. Even in the last seconds of a life, there is hope. It'll all work out, I promise. <3
-Nuisance
P.S. You are in no way ugly. You are gorgeous and you should embrace it!
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